Chapter 10 - THE FATHER WHO WALKED AWAY
“He wants to meet Owen?”
I stared at my mother.
She nodded.
The apartment was quiet except for the soft breathing coming from the crib.
Owen had been home for less than twenty-four hours.
I'd barely slept.
Part of me wanted to laugh.
Another part wanted to cry.
And a small, angry part of me wanted to find my husband and ask where he'd been when our son weighed three pounds and two ounces.
“Why now?” I whispered.
My mother looked uncomfortable.
“He said he heard Owen had been born early.”
“When?”
“About a month ago.”
I stared.
“A month?”
She nodded.
I'd spent that month pumping milk, working exhausting shifts, and praying my son would survive.
And my husband had known.
He'd known Owen was here.
He'd known our baby was in the hospital.
And he'd remained silent.
His name was Ethan Mitchell.
We'd been married for three years when I became pregnant.
At first, he'd seemed happy.
He'd helped me paint the nursery.
He'd assembled the crib.
He'd even bought a tiny pair of yellow socks because he couldn't resist them.
Then the bills started arriving.
Ethan worked at an automotive repair shop.
His hours had been reduced.
We argued about money.
About the future.
About whether we were ready.
One night, when I was four months pregnant, he stood beside our kitchen table and said he couldn't do it.
“I don't think I'm ready to be somebody's father.”
I'd asked him what he meant.
He wouldn't look at me.
Then he packed a suitcase.
For weeks, I'd expected him to come back.
He never did.
Now, months later, he wanted to meet the baby he'd walked away from.
“Did you tell him where I live?” I asked my mother.
“No. He already knew your address, but I didn't invite him here.”
“Good.”
She squeezed my hand.
“I told him this was your decision.”
I looked toward Owen.
His tiny fingers were curled beside his face.
I suddenly understood something.
The loneliness I'd felt during pregnancy had changed me.
I'd learned to be strong because I didn't have anyone else to lean on.
But strength hadn't made me forget what Ethan did.
It had only taught me how to survive it.
“Did he say why he came?”
My mother hesitated.
“He said he wanted to make things right.”
I shook my head.
“You can't make six months disappear.”
“I know.”
“He wasn't there when they told me Owen might need extra help breathing.”
My voice cracked.
“He wasn't there when I came home from the hospital without him.”
My mother pulled me close.
“I know, honey.”
I cried against her shoulder.
Not because I wanted Ethan back.
But because I'd once imagined bringing our son home together.
And that dream was gone.
Later that morning, I spoke to Teresa.
She'd stopped by with groceries and a casserole.
I hadn't intended to mention Ethan.
But when she asked how I'd slept, the words spilled out.
“My husband wants to see Owen.”
Teresa became quiet.
“The one who left?”
I nodded.
She set the casserole on the counter.
“What do you want?”
I almost answered automatically.
I want him to go away.
But then I looked toward my son's crib.
“I don't know.”
Teresa nodded.
“That's a fair answer.”
I looked at her.
“Do you think I should let him meet Owen?”
She considered the question.
“I think Owen deserves people who love him consistently. And you deserve time to decide who has earned your trust.”
I swallowed.
“What if Ethan really has changed?”
“Then he can show you.”
She touched my hand.
“Promises are easy when you aren't the one getting up at three in the morning.”
I managed a small smile.
“That sounds like experience talking.”
“Seventy-eight years of it.”
We both laughed quietly.
Before leaving, she added, “Don't let anybody rush you just because they're ready to feel forgiven.”
That afternoon, I asked my mother to tell Ethan I would speak with him.
Without Owen.
We agreed to meet at a small diner near the hospital the following morning.
I chose a public place because I wanted to feel comfortable.
My mother stayed with Owen.
When I arrived, Ethan was already sitting in a booth.
He looked thinner than I remembered.
There were dark circles beneath his eyes.
His brown hair was cut shorter.
He stood when he saw me.
“Sarah.”
I stopped several feet away.
“Hello, Ethan.”
For a moment, he looked at me as though he'd forgotten how to speak.
Then he said, “You look good.”
I almost laughed.
I'd slept three hours.
My hair was tied back.
There was dried formula on the sleeve of my sweater.
“Don't,” I said.
He lowered his eyes.
“Okay.”
I sat across from him.
He didn't reach for my hand.
That was wise.
For several seconds, neither of us spoke.
Then I asked the question I'd carried for months.
“Why did you leave?”
He stared at the table.
“I was scared.”
“Of what?”
“Failing.”
I shook my head.
“You failed when you walked out.”
He flinched.
“I know.”
I swallowed.
“Our son was born ten weeks early. I sat beside him every day wondering whether he'd ever come home. And you knew about it.”
Ethan's eyes filled.
“I heard.”
“Then why didn't you come?”
He struggled to answer.
Finally, he whispered, “Because I didn't know how to face you.”
I stared at him.
“That wasn't your decision to make.”
He nodded.
“I know.”
I leaned back.
“Is there anything else I should know before you ask to be part of Owen's life?”
Ethan looked toward the window.
Then he said quietly, “Yes.”
My stomach tightened.
He swallowed.
“I lied to my mother about your pregnancy.”
I stared.
“What kind of lie?”
May you like
His face crumpled.
“I told her the baby was gone.”
